"I Want To Go To
Heaven The Moment I Die"
Including Near Death
"I Want To Go To Heaven The Moment I Die" by Fr. Thady Doyle, with its analyses of both near death and real
life experiences has the capacity to profoundly impact on how one
understands the nature of God, the nature of eternal life, how
judgement takes place and what it consists of, the teaching of
Jesus, the nature of the human person as an embodied spirit, and
how to become open to spiritual and emotional healing.
A 3 CD SET BASED ON THE BOOK IS ALSO
NOW AVAILABLE. See CDs in price list. The CD set
contains a selection of stories from the book, and highlights
some of the main themes.
The book first analyses several near death experiences.
Don Piper, a Baptist, who was declared dead by
two doctors, gives a most moving account of his 90 minutes at the
gates of Heaven.
George Rodonaia was a 'good' atheist. After
being assassinated by the KGB, his body was in the mortuary for
three days. He only came alive when the autopsy began. Following
his experience, not merely did he become a believer, but he
became a priest in the Russian Orthodox Church.
Dr. Howard Storm, born into a Christian family,
became a 'bitter' atheist with a chip on his shoulder against
Christians. During a near death experience, he found himself
being dragged to the gates of hell by evil spirits. After his
recovery, not merely did he become a Christian, but also a
Methodist minister, going as a missionary to South America. But
while he is a Methodist minister, he very much believes in the
Catholic understanding of Purgatory as he believes that he was
Stanley Villavicencio was a dedicated Catholic
but was still sinning in certain serious ways. He was declared
brain dead and the life support machine was due to be switched
off when he just sat up. He describes in clear detail how Jesus
led him into a full life review. The medical facts of his 'brain
death' were later confirmed by a church commission in his native
Fr. Steven Scheier was a popular outgoing
Catholic priest, but he had no prayer life and was not keeping
the commandments. Following a car crash, during which he suffered
severe head injuries, he had a near death experience during which
he saw the full truth about his life, and was told that on the
basis of his life, he deserved hell but was being given a second
Barbara from Rhode Island, was an ordinary
housewife with little faith. During her near death experience,
she too experienced a life review, and saw how she was hurting
her husband and family in the way that she spoke to them.
Marino Restrepo was addicted to sex, drugs and
drink for 33 years. While being held hostage for six months under
the most extreme conditions by the FARC guerillas, he had an out
of body experience that was identical to a near death experience.
He found himself at the gates of hell. Then, as he repented of
his selfish lifestyle, he was embraced in God's love and shown
the full truth about the hurt that he had caused in life. One
could almost say that his spirit had an out of body exorcism,
being delivered of all his compulsions. Coming back into his
body, he was able to leave behind his addictions to drugs, drink
and sex and live the totally dedicated life. Recently he visited
Ireland and Great Britain sharing his experience.
Gloria Polo a Catholic, was in complete
rebellion against Church teaching on sexuality, and had
encouraged her nieces and nephews to be sexually active, and then
paid for the resultant abortions. After being struck by lightning
and suffering massive injuries, she had two near death
experiences in quick succession. During the first she briefly
experienced herself being embraced by the Light, but during the
second, she was shown how she had broken all ten commandments,
and found herself at the gates of hell. Then, being embraced in
God's love, she came back into her body, and is living a totally
Angie Fenimore, a young Mormon mother, suffered
severe abuse as a child and lived with despair all her life.
Eventually she came to believe that the best thing she could do
for her husband and children was to take her own life. She had
heard of people being embraced by "the light" and
expected the same. At first she was, and was shown her entire
life in review, but then she found herself in the very depths of
Purgatory and was challenged by God for taking her own life. As
she repented, she was embraced in the love of Jesus, and enabled
to come back into her body leaving her suicidal desires fully
Angie Fenimore is a Mormon yet her experience of Purgatory
contains remarkable similarities to the visions of an Irish
visionary who goes by the name 'Anne' to protect her anonymity.
Anne's visions have been published with the approval of her
bishop, and have been submitted to Rome. They are in fact
consistent with what many people have experienced during near
death experiences, and they too are covered in the book.
Barbara Harris Whitfield is a non Christian. She
was the victim of severe verbal and emotional abuse by her
emotionally sick mother. This led to her living all her life as a
victim. Then during her near death experience, she was embraced
and permeated by Love. Coming back into her body, she was able to
leave her past behind, and to live a love inspired life. A
non-Christian, her interpretation of what she experienced is not
consistent with the teaching of the Bible, but her actual
experience is totally open to a Christian interpretation.
David Oakfield, another non-Christian, who
overdosed on drugs had a near death experience that is not
consistent with Christianity, but is in ways similar to the
'temptations' of Jesus.
The temptations of Jesus can also now be seen in
a new light as out of body experiences occurring after his forty
days of severe fasting in the desert.
Taken together these near death experiences give us fascinating
insights into the following,
1. That God is love. God absolutely is love, and
desires to permeate us with His love. Not merely is God love, but
love is the very life force of Heaven, and one cannot enter
Heaven until one is transformed by love and even transformed into
2. How judgement works. After death, we will
undergo a life review during which we will be faced with the full
truth about our lives. The full truth about our lives includes
the hurt we have caused directly or indirectly. One sees exactly
how other people felt as a result of one's actions, how this
impacted on their lives, and how this led them to impact on the
lives of others. One also sees what God's original plan for one's
life was, and the opportunities that one missed, as well as all
that one has accomplised in terms of bringing love into the
3. The nature of Purgatory:- a process, for some
deeply painful, by which we face the truth about our lives, are
exorcised of our selfishness, seek to make reparation for the
hurt we have caused, and are made ready for becoming love just as
God is love.
4. The teaching of Jesus. Our eyes are opened to
elements of his teaching that we have either glossed over or
completely missed. These include the complete centrality of His
teaching on love and His assertion that God causes his sun to
shine on good and bad alike and so must we. This, in turn,
demands that we realise and indeed proclaim that the Old
Testament understanding of God as one who will promptly zapp the
bad is deeply flawed.
But our eyes are also opened to many other teachings of Jesus,
like what He meant when spoke of the Father being in Him, and of
Him being in us. The level of unity and interconnectedness on the
other side is such that the non-Christian, Barbara Harris
Whitfield, following her hear death experience mistakingly thinks
that we all blend into one consciousness.
5. The nature of the human person. Our eyes are
opened to the full significance of the fact that we are indeed an
eternal spirit now embodied; that the most essential element of
who we are is our eternal spirit.
6. The nature of healing. Our eyes are opened to how if
one's eternal spirit is healed, then one's life can be
transformed - even if one previously had compulsions or
addictions, or suffered as a victim.
The aforementioned people had their lives transformed during near
death experiences. But how do we become open to this without
having a near death experience? In the middle section of the
book, I have some remarkable stories of people whose lives were
transformed without the need for a near death experience.
Lee Ezell was born into an abusive dysfunctional
home, her father an abusive alcoholic, her mother also an
alcoholic. Just when Lee was getting away from all this and
getting started in life, she was raped when just gone 17, and
then found herself pregnant as a result of the rape. Being put
out by her mother for being pregnant, and finding herself
homeless and penniless, she decided to trust God. There followed
a remarkable series of events, which led to her emerging as an
outstanding Christian leader.
Fr. Joe Bill was a very 'busy' priest. Then,
when aged 47, he had a major heart attack, and was told that he
was to never again preach or climb a stairs. Instead he was
healed at a Charismatic Conference during which he also
experienced Jesus and His love in a new way. Developing a process
of healing which he called 'total person therapy', he toured the
world nonstop giving healing retreats until his death at the age
Fr. Tomislav Ivancic was given two months to
live with cancer 39 years ago. Being healed during an experience
of God's love, he has developed a process of therapy known as
'Hagiotherapy', based on the belief that there is a deeper
element to the human person than psychiatry can reach.
Hagiotherapy is proving extremely successful, and there are now
schools for the training of hagiotherapists in several countries
in central Europe. His understanding of the human person and the
healing of the inner self is totally compatible with the
understanding of the human person developed in this book from the
analysis of those who have had near death experiences.
The book then contains a major chapter on how the ordinary person
can take effective steps to become open to healing and
transformation oneself without the need for attending a trained
hagiotherapist; how one can in effect let Jesus be one's
The last quarter of the book gives practical steps towards
ensuring that one will be able to go to Heaven the very moment
that one dies; effectively how the ordinary person can live a
life of deep union with Jesus.
The fact that I have published so much of the book in the
Curate's Diary may take from its value for regular Diary readers.
But it could be a most outstanding gift to give to friends who
don't read the Diary - a gift that has the potential to transform
First there are all these testimonies to enthral them. Without
even realising it, they will find themselves coming to a new
understanding of God, of eternal life and judgement, of the
teaching of Jesus, and their own nature as an eternal spirit now
living in a mortal body.
This is all exciting reading. If one is into reading at all, one
will find oneself gripped by it. Then there are the simple steps
towards putting one's life right with God; followed by steps
towards ongoing healing of one's spirit and one's spiritual soul.
Then one is given the opportunity to go deeper in one's
relationship with Jesus. One is indeed given a vision of how the
ordinary person can so live that he or she will be able to go
straight to Heaven the moment he or she dies.
If this book comes under God's anointing, and I ask your prayer
support to that end, it has the capacity to lead to,
1. The conversion of many many unbelievers.
2. Conversion from sin and selfishness of many believers.
3. Dramatic spiritual progress for those who are already walking
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